What is on my mind…

Published April 27, 2014 by clarabee64

Figured it was time to post and also share some excited pictures.

First things first…. I am now known as Clara Marie Archer. Yeap we sealed the deal in front of a whopping 30 some of our closest friends and family on April 13th.

Mr & Mrs Archer Mr&MrsArcher4 Her VowsMr&MrsArcher5 His VowsThere were definitely lots of giggles during the ceremony as we both tend to be silly at times. I couldn’t be happier though.

 

Also our family has changed a bit. On the day of the wedding, Darin changed his name and welcomes Will with open arms as his father. A move that brought tears to my eyes. Abigail (aka Abi/Abby) also has changed a bit and grew up into a lovable 3 year old from her previous newborn avi. That is not all though…. About 4 days before Easter, Will and I ended up in a trial with a little girl named Bailey. On Easter she surprised us with the best news ever, taking down her panel at Heritage and has officially become our daughter. She is 3 as well so we have our hands quite full but I wouldn’t have it any other way! She fits right into our Madness and even beats up Daddy for no reason!! LOL.

 

Mommy's Girls

Here is (L-R) Bailey, Myself, and Abi on Easter… Mommy and her girls!

 

Okay and some more family news which happened shortly after the wedding… I joined another family. You all remember Sadie, my crazy sissy who I love dearly and consider my sister in RL as much as in SL? Welp I joined her family, her mom took Myself, Will, and our children into her family with open arms. We are officially part of the Talon Family and have numerous siblings!!  Here is a picture of one of my new brothers Matt, Sadie who is now my twin, Kelly my mom, and Myself goofing off in the Nursery.

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Not the greatest picture but it definitely works 😛

 

Okay so on the Nursery topic…. I am pleased to announce…. Gabriella Addison Archer and Brandon Ace Archer. Born on April 22nd, 2014. Gabby was born at 10:34 am at a whopping 8 lbs 15 oz and 19 inches long followed by Brandon weighing in at 6lbs 12 oz 19 inches long at 10:38 am.

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Photo credit to my sissy Sadie and you can read more about the birth here : Talon Family Blog

 

So lets recap fast, Wedding, Bailey, Talon Family, and Twins…. Yeap I think that is about all that’s on my mind at the moment for catch up. Be sure to check back in within this coming week as I attempt to get back into a bit of fashion blogging and tackling the A-Z Challenge!

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Changes

Published April 6, 2014 by clarabee64

Wow. That is all I can say as I look back over this blog. I get distracted a bit, as many close to me know. This is my second blog I ever started for Second Life. The first one held lots of memories from a past relationship as it was a family blog, writing about moments as my family at that time grew including a second life pregnancy documented. I figured it was time to update just a bit. Life definitely has spun me around and around in real but more so in second. Friendships and family have left, there has been anger, abandonment, and pure hate. Both sides as I was not innocent in all of it at times. Many close to me know that it does take a lot for me to get to that low of a point. With all of that, there have been lots of new relationships, renewed friendships, and Love…. Yeap dropped that L word. So below is a brief little summary of those closest to me at the moment and all the newness going on in Second Life…..

 

*Will*

Where to start…. He is trouble! HAHA No but I have known Will since my old TRS days. We both were hosts and then managers at the club together. We used to pick back and forth. After both of us left TRS we still remained friends. Every few weeks or so, chatting it up in IMs. It wasn’t until a sour break up, that we really started getting closer. He became someone I could vent to. He sat by watching all the dumb relationships I ended up in. It was around Christmas when we really started talking basically daily. I was in a relationship once again, Actually was a good relationship at first but then it quickly crumbled. Will was there for me to talk about it, he was the one I vented to a few times as I decided to give my now ex a 2nd chance which turned into just broken promises again… Will told me that he wasn’t letting me go after that. He let me have my healing but he said when I healed, I was his…. Of course I made him work hard because I was very unsure of taking a friendship to that level. I was scared of loosing that now year friendship. Well eventually I gave in and we officially became boyfriend and girlfriend on January 20th. It wasn’t long before talk about weddings and marriage slowly was getting dropped into our conversations which freaked me out a bit. I had been there and had been engaged once after that and wasn’t completely sure. Well for a couple week, Will planned a special surprise for Valentine’s Day for me. A few days before, he gave me a promise ring which did ease my mind on the whole engagement aspect. Don’t get me wrong, him proposing would have been awesome but deep down I just didn’t feel ready, I guess… I was so scared. Scared of getting close and then being abandoned. The weekend before Valentine’s Day, Will got word, as much as he tried saying no, he had to go away in RL starting a few days before Valentine’s Day until about 2 days after. The whole surprise got bumped up which was awesome considering for weeks, EVERYONE knew except me and it was driving me nuts! Well the surprise was amazing! It was a beautiful winter wonderland scene rezzed out on land… We danced, talked, and cuddled for hours. Will then said he want to take a picture with me, so he rezzed out some pose balls and told me to hop onto it, so I did, Next thing I know he was on his knee proposing to me. I was in shock but said yes. I was falling for him, I did love him… A few days later, while he was away though the thoughts of marriage, the thoughts and fears of everything became so rough on me that I ended things. He kept trying to contact me and I ignored him. It was about a day or 2 later when It all sank in, how I truly did care for him. I loved him. He some how snuck on past that wall I had. So after some long talks and tears shed for me as I poured out how I wanted to slow down, We gave it another go BUT no wedding talk until I was ready. It didn’t honestly take long for me to bring it up though. I told him April at the earliest. Fast forward. It is now April and We are all set to tie the knot on the 13th! In addition to that, we are also expecting April 23rd TWINS! Things have never been better. I am nervous, as a bride to be is days before her wedding, but I am 110% ready!

*Sisters*

So I have a total of ummm… oh hell, Im too tired to attempt to count. Well I got Leena and Sadie, My two partners in crime. I got Kammie, Vanessa (aka Boom), Cece, and think that is it… or at least all I can think about right now. *ducks if she missed anyone*

These ladies are awesome. Cece is my rl bestie but things in SL split us up for quite some time, we didn’t talk or even associate in the same circles. Eventually though we had a long talk and things have been awesome. I am so glad to have her back in my life. She has been by my side for almost 8 years. Love you Cece!

Sadie is my Sissy roni! I have known her over a year and honestly, her and her hubby are one of the BEST things to come from a failed relationship. They are my sister and brother in both lives. I love them like crazy and cannot wait to eventually meet them in RL!

Leena is the one I mainly get into trouble with. She has been around a lot and dealt with some of the crappy drama that has swirled around our heads over the last about 6 months. She is one I can count on.

Of course my Boom is also still one of my right hand women! Although we don’t spend as much time together or talk like we used to, she is still one of my closest SL & RL friendships and when we do talk, its like we never stopped!

Kammie is pretty new, and the latest edition to the sister list. We met just a few months back but have gotten so close! She is one hell of a nut to be around.

*Cuzzy*

Danni!! Yeap she is still around and still trying to blame things on me! I am the innocent angel though 😛

*Kids!*

Okay so this area has changed a tiny bit… well a lot lol.

Currently our kids consist of Darin, Abigail, Hudson(Zooby), and Our Trial daughter Spencer.

Darin has been with me since August. He is a teen/ young adult and a handful at times. He drives me nuts but I love him! He will always have a place in my heart even if I rarely see him.

Abigail I have known on another avi since forever it seems. She officially became part of our family about a month ago, taking the place of my daughter Dixie. Shes a newborn avi and so tiny! It is amazing the avis in second life anymore. Abigail is a definite joy to be around though and always keeps us smiling!

Hudson is my zooby son who I have had for about a yr and a half now.

And last but not least Spencer. We just began our trial with her but she is a crazy and funny 11 yr old! She has me laughing and I think will be a great edition to our family. We still have a few days on our trial, but I think things are very promising!!

 

So for now, that’s about all… Hopefully Ill keep this thing a bit more active and get back to posting once again!

Its Been awhile

Published December 6, 2013 by clarabee64

Rain

 

It’s been awhile since I’ve had the opportunity to really get in here and post. I’ve been head on into things all over the place but I am slowly coming back.

I was listening to music the other day while I couldn’t sleep. Aimlessly browsing through youtube as normal and came across a song I hadn’t heard forever. It speaks to me and is one of those songs that helps you get through the bad. The song is Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield. My inspiration for this picture. I found the perfect place and perfect use for a hair I bought at Collabor88 ages ago!

 

Dress: Apple May Sarah in Purple

Skin: Apple May Sophie Tan

Hands: Slink Elegant 1

Hair: Clawtooth Windswept

Necklace: RealEvil Industries Spectrum Heart Set

Sim: Rainy City
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Stronger

Published October 4, 2013 by clarabee64

Strength

Do you ever sit there and have one song that just fits your life, everything you have gone through, just perfectly? I dealt with a tough blow a few months back and this song fits so perfectly to how I feel and was the one I was holding onto yesterday for my inspiration. I went out exploring today. I needed me time. I needed time away from everything and everyone. I stumbled across a sim and I was jumping on pose balls. I jumped on one below a tree. It fit. It all came together. I needed tonight to myself. I needed that sim and everything it gave me. It gave me strength to clear my mind. It gave me healing. Its been a hell of a year for me but I am a little bit stronger and my strength continues to grow.

Woke up late today, and I still feel the sting of the pain.
But I brushed my teeth anyway, got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.Riding in the car to work, and I’m trying to ignore the hurt.
So I turned on the radio, Stupid song made me think of you,
I listened to it for minute, but then I changed it.
I’m getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger.And I’m done hoping that we can work it out,
I’m done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I’m done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I’m telling myself I’ll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

Doesn’t happen over night, but you turn around and a months gone by,
And you realize you haven’t cried.
I’m not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer.
I’m busy getting stronger.

And I’m done hoping that we can work it out,
I’m done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I’m done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I’m telling myself I’ll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

Getting along without you baby,
I’m better off without you baby,
How does it feel with out me baby?
I’m getting stronger without you baby.

And I’m done hoping that we can work it out,
I’m done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I’m done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I’m telling myself I’ll be okay,
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

I’m just a little bit stronger.
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

“A little bit Stronger”-Sara Evans

Style Card to be added soon

 

Reflecting

Published October 2, 2013 by clarabee64

Reflections

For this post I had an entirely different idea going through my head but once on location and finding a pose I loved, I changed the path.

To Find out the location, head over to my friend TakaBoom’s Blog Here and check out her post “Loosing Myself.”

Skin: Belleza-Ava SK BBB 2

Shape: .:Panda Punx:.– May 2013 Group Gift Cassie

Hair: ^;^CaTwA^;^-Yara V1 Summer Blondes Med. Blonde

Top: [Etchaflesh]-Bandana Black Mesh Scarf Top

Jeans: Apple May– Daydreamer Denim Crops-Ripped

Feet: Gaeline Creations– Flat bare Feet

 

Alone

Published October 1, 2013 by clarabee64

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Have u ever feel like you’re all alone
even when everyone is around?
Like you wanna walk away
but your legs are stuck on the ground?

When you wanna scream so loud?
But even when you scream you make no sound?
When the sadness become your best friend..
and it feels like the end..

When winter comes with no wind..
And to the wrong road you tend?
When leaves don’t fall in autumn, but spring
And flowers open in autumn instead of spring
When all you need is someone to hold your hand..
& Lead you to the right land..

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Worn:

Skin: Belleza-Jade

Shape: LAQ– Glow Shape R

Hair: Magika-Rewind 1

Piercings: {Sugar Heart} – Mesh Dimple Piercings
Xia’s Boutique-Spiked Horseshoe Snakebites

Tattoos: CM Bludstone Designs-Custom

Lips: Belleza-Shy/Betty Med Lip 6

Eyes: Ikon – Oxidation (M)

Running Mascara: Sub Rosa-Spectals Crying Game Running Mascara

Eyelashes: -DAMNED- Body Shop -My Perfect Eyelashes

Nails: Sexy Mama-Prim Nails Manicure 2

Top: CMSCO-Tied Top Peachy Plaid

Pants: Twisted&Spoiled-Tramp Jeans Faded

Shoes: T Auer-Mesh Ladies Cowboy/Boho Boots Khaki

Inside Her Madness

A blog on the SL Life of Clara